After a great day together, the kids all crashed peacefully into their beds. I relaxed in Mike's chair, a good book clutched in my hand and Sam snuggled on my chest. After I finished the book (it was a good one) I just watched Sam and enjoyed the sounds of the night creeping in through the windows. Sam was out, resting his tiny little head on one of his skinny little arms making cute sounds from his barely-open little mouth. I said a silent thank you for my kids and whispered to Sam that I couldn't promise him anything in this life except that his mommy and daddy would love him always. I began thinking about my little ones upstairs, how they are not so little anymore and are growing up fast. I recalled the days I held them in my arms and wondered what they would look like, how they would smile, when they would crawl, walk, ride a bike, tie their shoes, and just hope and pray - not for riches or popularity - but for happiness, health, and a long joy-filled life that greatly outlived my days on earth. I decided to put Sam down in his bed and visit my sleepers in theirs. After going from each child, watching them sleep, breathing in their distinct smells, and kissing their foreheads, I promised them the same I promised their baby brother. Again I thanked God for them, their unique qualities that I embrace and struggle with, for they make them who they are.
This is what it is all about.
Tomorrow - which is traditionally "Saturday Sucks" (the kids named it that b/c we spend the morning deep cleaning the house) I think I will play Candy Land with Aine, paint those Care Bear dolls with Abigail, pitch a few to Karl, and just watch and enjoy what I have - a house needs to be cleaned, this is true, but my little ones will never stay little no matter how badly I want them to, this is more important.
Someone once said you only really have 18 summers with your kids...sad when you think about it like that. I have 9 left with Karl, not much...I can clean my house another time.
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right now im holding sam..hes been out for a while now--when i put the girls up to bed they both started screaming i want my mommy so then i read a book to them and me and sam layed up there with them until they fell asleep--they were really good tonight..and NO sam did not pee on me haha--hes laying on my chest..the noises out side with the crickets in the background..with little same laying his little head on my chest..me feeling every breath of his and the tiny little noises that come from his barely open mouth---haha im such a dork..but i really REALLy do love this post..it makes me think into the future & picture what my kids will look like and what will happen..its crazy--well i better go..im watchin the suite life of zach and cody! hehe
**love..ur fav baby sitter**
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